Sunday, June 28, 2015

Hmmm

So clearly I'm not making it with writing each day about things that make me happy..but I AM thinking about them.

My dog Kasey and my cats, Mimi and Zipper make me happy.  Keeping them fed, brushed, loved and paying attention to them every chance I have makes me happy.  It's what I'm supposed to do.

And really, right now it is all about doing what I am supposed to, until it feels right and natural again and not an effort or exercise.  It's the only coping mechanism I seem to be able to effectively employ.

Today I am simply happy that it's been overcast and the heatwave eased a bit.  It's enough.

I'm also grateful for a job and a way to get there and a fine ham sandwich I just put together.  So there.

Happy Sunday.

Monday, June 22, 2015

So...I saw today a post where it says that writing for 2 minutes a day about a positive experience in the last 24 hours can increase happiness dramatically.  Seems like it's worth a shot.

Today I washed my incredibly filthy car, thanks to my landlady reassuring me that it was ok to use the water here for something like that.  I also did some gardening..repotted a few things, got a baby violet plant ready to take to a friend at work, checked the tomato and basil and rosemary.  Started a pot of pasta sauce for a casserole for the week.  Little things but such steps forward to me.

I also took my dog, Kasey for a long walk.  She has plenty of room here to run outside but she so enjoys different smells and paths.  She is a joy.  She is currently outside with me here and intent on the baby kittens just beyond her sight in the garage.

I enjoyed taking the time to groom the cats-they give me so much joy also!  All in all, it's been a  nice, relaxing 2 days off of work and I feel ready to face the week tomorrow!

Namaste'!

Sunday, June 21, 2015

So...again a long time, blog.

I'm sitting outside in glorious Oregon at my home.  It's tiny, perfect and I love it.

That said, life hasn't been so perfect.  We moved here last June, got legally married in August, found this place in December.  It's 32 miles one way from work but a gorgeous drive every day.  I don't mind it.

In mid April, things were great.  Loved our home, I got hired full time at Lowe's instead of seasonal, things were balancing. Then on April 29, Jack (Maureen) left me suddenly and without warning.  It appears for someone else..she's told me she is seeing someone although I didn't ask who.  I guess it really doesn't matter, you know?

So life for me right now is about finding balance.  Getting ok in my own skin, shedding the pounds of guilt I've managed to acquire in my 11 year relationship/marriage.  Learning to live alone again and budget and get up every day in spite of the hurt and anger and keep moving forward.

It's not easy.